This forum... I guess in a way it acts as a time capsule of sorts. Between 2007 and 2010 I posted using two different accounts. I was browsing through my old posts and I noticed something: these two old accounts contain very different versions of me. In the first account, I was on the cusp of turning 18. I had lived through the pain of having my heart broken. I bitched about my job at Wal-Mart non-stop. I saw a few reviews I made of various media. I was a restless teenager.
The second account was one I made in college. College was tough for me, as I learned various things about myself that have shaped me into the woman I am today. I remember that I made a post where I came out publically to everyone, but for the life of me, I can't find it. I probably deleted it at some point as I was shamed by people outside the forum in meatspace into being less than who I really am. Of course, I bitched about various things in college, C++ primarily and what I have come to accept as my eternal love/hate relationship with software engineering in general.
Since I stopped posting here, so much has happened in my life that I almost laugh at how trivial my past problems were. I found love. I experienced how much more painful it is to break someone's heart when it's done out of necessity. I graduated college and got my first engineering job. I was fired for the first time from a salaried position. I found a second job, this time as an engineer in the field i set out to be a part of in the first place, video games. I've moved from my parents place, to a shitty apartment, to renting a decent townhome.
I've grown so much that I can barely recognize the man I used to be. The similarities are still there, but the woman I am now is a far cry from him.
Hi, I'm Miki, and I think way too much about shit.